Up in Smoke!

I was reading my own post. But I remembered the exact reason why I left it. But I did not mention it in full truth since I did not want my sister to know how I had felt on that day!

Now, my sister is no more. But the reason why I left smoking was... She mentioned once in the hospital..."I will not take a smoker's blood", when I wanted to give my blood to her. She needed a transfusion and the hospital wanted a donor, and I volunteered immediately but she refused. I felt so ashamed of myself that I could not give blood to my sister, though many of my friends and colleagues did. I felt so helpless and so lonely. That day was the day I felt I was worthless. If I could not give up smoking, I was a total waste. And I did give up smoking ...with the thought of my sister..and I steeled it using other metaphysical resolves...thanks to my sister. Chomi..where ever you are I will always love you. I wish you to come back to me in your next birth.

Back to US: Philadelphia

Yes, I am back to US. I have escaped the winters twice but this time I guess I have to go through the icy stuff. Being a madrasi, anything less than 8 deg celcisus is cold and this city seems to provide -5 Farenheit. One part of me does not like this winter stuff but the other part wants to move in the snow.

I am married now, but my wife is in India and the interview date is a long way off (4 months). I have been with my wife for only 1 moonth after marriage and again back to bachelor days! I have asked my company guys to speed up things, but not much seems to be happening now. I guess it will be more fun if she can join me before the winter. (Keeping fingers crossed x). Konjam polambal mathiri irruku.... but my wife does that everyday with me and she is certainly not very fond of the persons responding to her H4 queried from my company. One person even mentioned she had resigned and my wife innocently believed that !!

Hoping for the best for now.

Got Engaged !

Yeah, finally the day of my bachelorship are over and I am moving towards the couples area. I got engaged to a beautiful girl on the 4th of July (American Independence Day). No chance of forgetting that date. :) This is very much an arranged marriage with horoscope match and all the works. Yes, I am back in Chennai for now. Lucky me !

My thoughts on life

Life and time are relative. Life appears its length of time the way we look at it. As a human, life to 80 years in human life line. In a fly's life line which lives for only a few days, human appear to live forever. In the view point of a redwood trees, human life is just a dot. Life and time period are less important. What is important is what impression is made in this span. Has a good example been set for future generations ? Character and Attitude appears to have survived through lenghthier times but is there a time period for that too ??? I wonder ?